The shoes are still white

Well, I made it through my appointment without puking! There were lots of tears, but thankfully those do not stain!
Thank you all SO much for your comments of encouragement. I read them over and over even as I sat (shaking) in the waiting room and was so blessed by each one.

I originally started this blog because it is an easy way for me to keep everyone up to date with the latest news and info during this time. I will be going to the doctor every two days and I am so humbled that everyone wants to know the outcome of those visits and wants to pray with me. It is so draining for me to repeat the same info over and over though and this is a way that I can post it once and not have to rehash it 20 times. So, I guess I am back to the original purpose- posting the glamorous (and not so glamorous) details of IVF.

So, here is what happened today....
(Some of you know, that I did not have a good experience with the nursing staff during my last round. So, this time I am using the same doctor, but at a different office location with different staff.) So, today I went to the new office. One of the nurses that works there used to be an L&D nurse with me on the night shift. She is so sweet and I have been looking forward to the fact that she would be involved this time, someone that I trust and that cares about me! The medical assistant called me in the room and gave me my injection. She started to leave the room and I said "Wait! What do I do now?" Maybe I should remember the steps in the process, but it is so overwhelming and I just don't remember. So, she said that she would have (my friend) the nurse, come talk to me.
So, she walks in the room, hugs me and says, "So, are you ready?"
I lost it. I just started bawling. "No, I am not ready!" My sweet friend sat there with me and let me cry. It was just what I needed. I told her my fears and that it is just so overwhelming to start the process all over again. I just don't know that I am ready for that heartbreak again. I don't know if I can stand it. She reassured me and she validated my feelings which was exactly what I needed. So, she then patiently went through the process and what to expect. I told her the way that I did the medications last time and she laughed. Apparently, there is a much simpler way to do them, (mixing several medications and eliminating some shots) which I wasn't told about.
She did advise to me throw away the drugs that I had left-over from the last cycle. (Unfortunately, they were in the fridge when Ike came to visit, but we were in Oklahoma and were not able to do anything about it. My brother and sister-in-law came and got them and kept them on ice for a week and we were hoping to salvage them, but no such luck.) But, the good news is that she is going to be able to access a different drug for me and significantly decrease the amount of drugs that I have to buy!
So, everything is in motion. I will start the follicle stimulating drugs in (+/-) 5-6 days. That's when the every 2 day dr.'s visits begin.
I left the office feeling SO much better than I did walking in.

So, that's it. That is where we are- the ball is officially rolling.
It is hard to believe that about this time next month, I will be hearing the results!