Today

Thank you to all of you that have called and emailed to check on us.

Our sweet friends, Brad and Tami came over last night and brought us dinner. And then, Tim and Sally came by today with Addison. Nothing brightens my spirit more than seeing my precious niece. The only bad thing is that it hurts to laugh and that child cracks me up!

Unfortunately, things have not gotten any better with me. My stomach is still extremely distended and the pain medication is not helping at all. It hurts to move, so I have just been lying flat with a heating pad.

It is hard to breathe because the fluid is pushing up on my diaphragm so I can't take a deep breath. It is hard to eat because there isn't much room in my stomach and I feel like I am going to vomit every time I eat. I need to be drinking as much water as possible to clear the fluid, but it is extremely painful to get out of bed to go to the bathroom. Plus, I am very dizzy when I try to stand.

Every time I move, the fluid irritates the surrounding tissues and creates more fluid. So, the nurse told me to stay in bed and move as little as possible. I even had to cancel a much anticipated girl's night celebration of our embryos! (Apparently, I was so excited, I was telling the nurse about it as they put me to sleep in my surgery!) I had so many things on my list to do before my bedrest began and now I haven't been able to do any of them! For a control freak like me, that has been very stressful. I wonder if God is trying to teach me something?

Rusty has been wonderful, of course. He has been such a help to me and has been waiting on me hand and foot. Every time I try to do something on my own, he orders me right back to bed. I am so thankful for such a wonderful husband. He is going to be such a good daddy.

I know that I should probably be in the hospital, but I am just too stubborn to go. I am afraid that if I go, he will not transfer the babies in tomorrow. Bad hyperstimulation usually does not occur until after the transfer, so he would not do it if it were dangerous for me. We could freeze them and do it later, but the success rate of frozen embryos is much lower and I don't want to risk it. I am really just trying to hold out until they are inside of me. I am afraid of how bad it will get though, if it is this bad already.

Please continue to pray....